shallow thoughts. 11.12.10

Today is 11th December 2010, Saturday. Weekend just for myself, to chill and have some alone time.

A reflection day I could say, when I am alone I love to think and making self notes.

Let me draft the highlights in year 2010.

January,  an active youth group is brain storming.

February, fabulousness friend came to support our church and had an amazing time with my fabulous friends.

March, life changing months, Been over the top and down. Grandma pass away and memorial for my godmom. Went to mission at medan, amazing journey with my Abba. Meet heap of people.

April, turn 23 and meet more amazing people again. Putting myself in place, missing grandmama.

May, took a month off to settle myself and family issue.

June, set up a blog page.... my tears flow like a waterfall. -good memories-

July, Hectic month starts.... work,work,work.

August, WORK like a mad lady getting jobs and planning. Meet bokkie.

September, Been working ever since 6am-12 mid night. lack of sleep. Meet a crazy lady.

October, WORK!!! debbie came and told goodnews!!!

November, party abit, work alot. Dad sick, worried sick!

December, push all my work(short break) till January 2011, trying to sorts things out, getting ready for my holiday in INDIA. Sick for 1week.

wow... looking at it, been working and working, I deserved a break after all. 

Been rebuke from some friend that I need rest... well, thank you... and I will rest. 

I know, is hard for me to slow down and sometime I am inpatient, so I'm learning to let go and let the Lord leads my way. 

REST is all I need, not physically but mentally! 

wish list!

frequent question always comes to me...

Jenny what do you want for Christmas?

I have a serious long list things that I want. Hope you are ready for the long list!

1) MU, T-shirt, with my name on it. (must be original) 

2) A holiday with some friends.

3) Sports rim for my cherry-hot-Sexy

4) Black Fix base ball hat with my name on it (been hunting this since I was 19th) 

5) Fossil bags I have eyed on it!!! 

6) A pair of new balance shoe. (m574skw)

7) Toshiba netbook

8) Brand new out look!!

9) Watch purple G-shock.

10) Watch sun rise.

That is my wish list!

dear dad...

Dear Dad,

Do you remember when I was a child, I use all the tricks to get goodies and making full use of my cuteness to get my way. I know every time I cry it will make you sad. I remembered, mom said don't get any ice cream for the young one, and I secretly tell you I want ice cream, and you will get it for me.... and mom will get furious for a while. (hahahhaa) Rainbow ice cream was my favorite. 
Till now, I still get my ways on you.

Looking at your facial expression I know your in pain physically, and do you know I am in pain too?
You complaint to Mom, your in pain and she called me, and tell me all the complaints you made, and when she advice you, you don't want to hear what she tells you. Arguments always happen, when your stubborn as that.

Listening to your complaint and argument my hearts weeps, I know you hate going to the doctor. But your not your own doctor, you can't go to the pharmacy and make your own prescription. Your intaking most of the medication is not certified by the health department.

How can I advice you, not to be so hard headed. Bring you to the doctors, listening what is going on with you making me worried. Dad, I love you and I want you to get well.

I know, there is no point I am writing this but just to express myself!!!
DAD... I love you!!!

Yours truly,
Daughter!!!

- and +

when you feel pain and hurt is always "-" sign pop up in to your mind, this is not a good thoughts.

when you smile and laugh your head out is it a "+"? do you really feel happy? are you just smiling and laughing cause everyone did it? or your making someone happy? 

truthfully, I am pretty down this few days, randoms thoughts and feelings come and go. 

sometimes is bad to think about negative and positive possibility, and things will happen next.

yet sometimes you can't stop yourself by thinking all the random things that happen.

is out of my control.

sometime I tell myself if I'm always sad and grumpy will it make things better or worst? 

what matters the most? 

I am rushing or too harsh on things?

there is question and question every day, that I ask myself,

holding ON and  LETTING go?

what should I hold ON too, is it worth it to let GO if I don't hold it tight?

my little 1pound brain don't make much senses sometime, it just think and think!

ahhhhhhhh......ALL I NEED IS........

i'm not too sure!!!

shallow thoughts. 10.11.10

fear, anger, sad, excitement, happy, random mix feeling..... just in 3hours time.

sometimes I am confuse with my own feelings in my daily life.

roller-coaster rides, there is up and down.... 

when you THINK that today is just another usual day, all plan out nice and smooth....

step by step... but mood swing change your whole day.

 Having random surprises visit with your emotion is not a perfect felling.

sometimes is FUN filled JOY, and sometimes just LAME and SAD

feel like crying so badly yet I can't, cause it just  make so many people worried and asking, "what happen?", "what is wrong". I know is okay to cry and be sad.

BUT

I

TRULY 

HATES 

IT!!!

when I have a random feelings, make me confuse and it JUST NOT RIGHT!!!

plus I know is not right to hold up all this to myself, and blogging is just a way to express my feelings and letting it out. 

BURST you stupid sadness in ME.

I know somewhere out there, A HUGE rainbow will appear and make me smile again.

if there is NO rainbow, hopefully... there is a awesome sun set, sun raise, cloud or even stars.... I could just gaze at, and make me feel all nice and warm inside out.

-my shallow thoughts 10.11.10-

  

News feed of my little brain.

His Grace created everything in Heaven and this earth that we are living in.

He made everything  all things possible, He knows us by names, He loves us, He give good gifts, and by his grace I am who I am now, His princess, his little girl, he comforts me when I am down. He know my needs, filling my empty soul with his undying love. I surrender to you, my lord my Saviour.

   ~mark 16:15. Go into all the world, and give the good news to everyone.~

 Lord I love you, please teach me how to trust and obey, sometimes I am afraid.

Yet sometime I know I have to step out in faith, and listen what you have to tell me.

I never forget that day you I got saved, is because I listen to you, my "papa" who loves me.

I know you are with me everyday, you know my prayer and my desire.

I know when the time is right my family will know you are the lord and Saviour of our life.

 

thanks giving~

Have you ever felt left out?

Have you ever felt your alone?

Some times I do have this feeling and I will turn to my "daddy" and asking him to fill me with strength, grace and joy. How amazing is he do fill me with strength when I am awfully tired, grace when I felt angry/worthless and Joy when I am sad.

Psalm 50:14-23  Make an offering of praise to God; keep the agreements which you have made with the Most High;Let your voice come up to me in the day of trouble; I will be your saviour, so that you may give glory to me.But to the sinner, God says, What are you doing, talking of my laws, or taking the words of my agreement in your mouth? Seeing that you have no desire for my teaching, turning your back on my words. When you saw a thief, you were in agreement with him, and you were joined with those who took other men's wives. You have given your mouth to evil, your tongue to words of deceit. You say evil of your brother; you make false statements against your mother's son. These things have you done, and I said nothing; it seemed to you that I was such a one as yourself; but I will make a protest against you, and put them in order before your eyes. Now keep this in mind, you who have no memory of God, for fear that you may be crushed under my hand, with no one to give you help: Whoever makes an offering of praise gives glory to me; and to him who is upright in his ways I will make clear the salvation of God. 

Faith makes all things possible! Praying and thanks giving what the lord have did for us. He loves us so much, we are his prince and princesses, be joyful always!

relationship status.

Single, In a relationship, Engaged, Married, It's complicated, In an open relationship (don't know what it means),

Widowed, Separated and Divorced. 

Relationship status... hrmmp... let put it this way!

I am not single, but I am in a relationship, yet engaged and married too. 

I'm in a relationship with GOD and engaged and married to him. I know it is complicated but is and open relationship me,him and you too. 

If you are Widowed, Separated or even Divorced, He will always be with you. He is everywhere!

this is my point of view.

P/s: aunty and uncle a.k.a I-WANT-TO-KNOW EVERYTHING.....I am not worry about my relationship status nor nervous if I am single. 

splash back memories

When was the day you think of  grandparents, parents, siblings, friends and little little things in life?

I think about my late grandparents that pass away when is 2002, her smile, laughter and her herbal tea that makes me vomit every time  I drink it. I didn't spend much time with my grandma, I barely know my own grandma.

But I know she loves us very much, although most of the time we don't understand what she is trying to say and hoping my parents translate correctly what she said, yet sometime I feel like I don't know who are they and somehow a generation is lost. My hearts melts when I see folks in the old folks home makes me sad and happy, because they share their life story to a stranger. How I wish my grandparents share that to me.

Is a shame that I don't have the opportunity to know my grandparents. 

Old people seems to have the sweets smile ever, and warmest hand that filled with love and peace.

I remember when I was a child my grandma will be very happy when we go back to visit her. A bright smile lighten her face with joy. It makes her happy when we are back. I can't relive in the past but memories will forever stay in my mind. 

Spending time with older folks is a privileges. Don't waste your time hanging out in a mall doing nothing, but spend time bring them out in a mall listen and share what is happening around you.

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One major fact that I learned, look and listen from your heart not your eyes and ears. In reality everyone listen thru ears and see it from their eyes, we need to learn to slow down our foot steep and take things easy trust your heart and everything will flow in the right spot just the way you want it to be. 

little bird

humming a song called little bird.

when I first starts to put words into this song, when I was in Medan JW Marriott hotel, In the pool.

Ohh well, I know when I am thinking about something, I will sing this song never fail, since that day onwards.

I didn't manage to finish the song because, the lyric is just my point of view and some question, Like a riddle.

I like to sing this little bird song, makes me smile, every time the lyric change but the beginning is still the same....

"Little little little bird, what can you see from the little little eyes..... tell me little little little bird, I want to know". 

well I hope one day I would write it down, every time I sing this song, It would be great to know and play back what I ask the little bird!

  

Bruno Mars - Just The Way You Are [Debut Single]

~this song is to all the special people out there~

merdeka, merdeka , merdeka!!!

Today is our national day, merdeka we called it, which means Independence or Freedom.

Independence from? freedom from?

Sometimes I ask myself what so great about National day, why do we need to celebrate it?!

Sitting at a corner at a condo alley, hearing children and adult shouting MERDEKA! MERDEKA! MERDEKA! when the clock struck 12am. Made me felt like shouting out loud with them too.

53years ago we are nothing and now we are something to be called Malaysia. A country bless with different race, culture, food and little little things that Malaysia have other country don't.

A country have declare Independence or Freedom form the British, Dutch, Protégées and Japanese. History have been made by our first prime minister, his made all Malaysian proud and his name will be remember forever, Tungku Abdul Rahman an amazing person.

Malay, Chinese, and Indian is the 3major race in Malaysia, and we all classified as Malaysian!

Nasi Lemak, Dim sum, Banana leaves rice.....yummmm.... and some influence from the west, we have cream caramel that taste so good. All this different food, traditional celebration of all race such as Hari Raya, Chinese New Year and Deepavali.....= Party ad good food!!!

Every Malaysian have One thing we all agree in, is FOOD. (opps and our tallest building too)

Well, everyone will be very happy to have a plate of nasi lemak and a cup of teh tarik for breakfast, and lepaking at our favorite mamak stall chatting about everything.

I love my country, I love the people and I love how we understand our sign language.

A colorful country, called Malaysia Boleh!!!!

shallow thoughts.

5days of adventure with

Gisele Marie Eva Pitot De La Beaujardiere,

Getting to know someone new is fun and interesting, because you don't know that person... except she is not vegetarian, dislike mushroom, nice and pretty according to Facebook picture. Some adventure when a girl came from the bush, stepping out in the the rain forest.

DAY 1.

Gisele Pitot, or the bokkie cause I don't even know the person the first day,

well things went okay while meeting up with a strange bush girl.

Sharing about shallow thoughts while she came in to the big rain forest (Malaysia).

As a bush lady, she is a fast picking up the culture and teaching her the basic words and explaining the s***, c***,h*** and p***, words to her is so funny. Because is not a bad word in Malaysia, so sharing some inside info about things we eat and things we do, by looking at her reaction make me want to laugh out loud.

Plus this bush lady sneeze minimum 3time in a sneeze and 9 the max so far.

She allergic to cats too. A talented young lady who love words and she write a.k.a journalist. (AMAZING)

Hanging out with this lady for 7hours in the first day is rough but I'm enjoying it.

Her humor and reaction make me laugh.

DAY 2.

Shopping is basically the main things and showing her around, well mission is tough yet, nothing can comes in to my way if I want to do it. Well don't be Jealous cause I have "DADDY" by my side and my body guard is the "HOLY SPIRITS" yay!!!

Taking a public transport in Malaysia is NOT nice when is peak hours. I personally dislike taking public transport but to let bush lady know how our country works, is a good way.

Hight is not her game nor mine, Monorail...hrmmppp......

Sharing a little bit about the PUDU JAIL history, to her and touring KL. Making sure she have a proper sack time so we went to pavilion, to have a light meal and good view, sharing more about shallow thoughts in travelling.

Loving heart is the key point to her heart, sometime she looks strong but very soft in the inside.

Getting home from a public transport is not fun at all, well but the raining part is nice, cooling ending to wrap up the KL tour.

All the fast and furious KL tour, we have to feed our lovely stomach, and most of you know how much I love cooking.

And guess what.... I did? Yes I cook, made some nice dinner/supper/tea for a lovely friend.

Hope I didn't lost touch in cooking.

I did what I love to do, driving is part of me too...

Brought my little friend to amazing KL view, sharing my little thoughts about Malaysia and how we are as a MALAYSIAN.

DAY 3.

Talking is sweet but showing a little part of living in Malaysia in a historical town called Melaka, Walking down into history lane make me felt so blessed as a Malaysian. We are so rich in culture and blessed with different people making Malaysian a truly Malaysian like me.

Deep thoughts about how people be happy in such simple life, with NO tv, NO internet, NO nothing, Gosh....amazing!

Can't believe that 53 years amazing to be part of this country. Loving every part of this nation that been created in a beautiful ways.

Lovely day to enjoy the beach so, I have decided to drive to Port Dickson to enjoy the breeze/wind at the beach side and having satay on nearby, playing 5s' alive with BUSH lady and shelly. Well jungle lady "me" lost the game and i drank the peanut sauce like 2gulp. (so kind of Gigi ask me not to finish it).

After dinner we have a walk at the beach it was okay!

Driving, back was fun looking at my passenger sleeping on the side of me, saying "I am fine, I can chat. I am not tired".... oh well~~~ (was an amazing day)

DAY 4

A beautiful Saturday/lazy day, yet had an adventures shopping outing. One think I could say is shopping is like a wild lion hunting its meal.

Well, for example if you find something you like eat you have to find search and go a mile to get the things you like.

And the shopping mall is like a jungle of beauty, having all the nice branded outfit and coolest place to hang out. Meeting with cool friend, for example I meet up with Gisele,Grant,Yaz, Mitch and Mike at 1utama.

Having all the hunting/shopping in a wild jungle is happy and funny.

Burn time is near and have to get dress up as a Zombie for FRIGHT night....

Is pretty nice place to be at "BURN" rough but fun!

Hard day but I know "daddy" will do great things in those 6 visitor. Life changing experience I could say.

DAY 5.

Awesome Sunday, preach was so damn good. Great time, good people around and nice lunch with people I love.

Have a nice afternoon, swimming (not me but everyone), looking how the little children at the pool side make me so happy, innocent looking children with loving parents sharing some fun time.

Giving me a great thoughts, of how love and trust can do, to a children. If there is no trust between the parents and the children, the children won't even go into the water.

Been thinking alot with this 5days about not important stuff yet sometimes something not important is very important to some other people.

Chilling and having great fun with family is fun.

Farewell dinner with the bush lady, and playing 5s'alive make everyone pretty alive! NICE game awesome friendship!

DAY 6.

HARD to say good bye mood again... well... have great time with an amazing girls name

Gisele Marie Eva Pitot De La Beaujardiere, made my life felt so much better, because I know I have a friend who have a heart of GOLD and love toward the nation!

Thanks for sharing and having you was an awesome 5days.

TLC as your wages and you know is much better then cold hard cash!!!

Emotion and Feelings

Journal

Walking, running, skipping, hopping....nothing could change my emotion.

Emotions, often called feelings, include experiences such as love, hate, anger, trust, joy, panic, fear, and grief. Emotions are related to, but different from, mood. Emotions are specific reactions to a particular event that are usually of fairly short duration. Mood is a more general feeling such as happiness, sadness, frustration, contentment, or anxiety that lasts for a longer time.

If both emotion and feelings combine in your mind, it will take hours and hours to clear what is going on in you. And trust me I been there and it is a nice place to be in. Sometimes I ask myself why do we have emotional breakdown and messy feelings flying up and down. There must be a perfectly good reason "why" we have to go thru all the pain and sorrows, love hate feelings, anger and joy.

So,I could not tell you how much I don't know about my feelings and I am confuse sometimes with all the random thoughts I have in mind..........

I am not alone.

A little part of my journal,

I am not walking alone, you are my guidance of my life.

Sometimes I made mistake and start doubting on myself, and I know you never leave me.

You will always be next to me and giving me guidance and encouragement.

My own strength can't do anything without you in it.

You have give me a multi colour dress, special gifting in my life, I am showing the true colour from you, multi colour. Unfolding the gifting you have place in my life, such and amazing adventure.

Is so amazing that I see myself growing in you, driving in the highway that you created for me.

Sending my little prayer every day, and I know you have received all my prayers; you know my desire. Walking the path that you created making me stronger person.

Look what we have done so far!!!

To my TEAM!!! you guys are awesome......

A little something for my fellow friends and family!

what we are.

Can you recall what did you do on your first day in this planet earth?

Is it crying, breathing, or kicking?

I don't remember anything, but I will take a wild guess, BREATHING.

Once we enter this wild, comparative, and full of rubbish nonsense world.

As a baby the grasp the first breath and grab everything and keep it in our fist as a baby.

As a baby we garbing, we cry, we laugh and life is such a care free life you might think.

Life isn't that simple, and as a baby we need to cry our lungs off to get attention, cry to indicate that we are hungry, cry to let other people know we pooped, and there is much more things we need to do.

Do we walk instantly when we are baby? Do we feed ourself when we were 1month old? Do we wear our pampers when we are 2month old?

All the above we can't do it when we were an infant. We do need help.

We can do anything but without HIM we are nothing. He created us, as his image and we are part of him in Christ Jesus. He only give us good gift in life, yet as a human we always have a blaming game, to blame something to other not to ourself.

Remember, we are his sons and daughter of his almighty himself, he wants the best in us.

Our Daddy wants the best of everything for us.

Give thanks to the lord, cause he is good.

So stop our stupid mentality of grabbing and chasing the power,money and authority that we already have, we should store up inheritance in His Kingdom.

He gives us Life, by His grace we are saved.

He pour out is over flowing love to out the nation.

I have a Daddy who loves me and people around me!

John 14:6

I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.

letting something out.

why..... some people cannot see nor understand the critical situation, even understanding the question that been ask. Can't they just digest and analyze what is important and what is not!

There is a good reason why do people ask question, people ask question is because they want to know the answer not just ask for FUN. Somehow people are so DUMB, normal personal question about him/herself they can't even answer. FOR GOODNESS SAKE!!!!

Is a fact that, human do analyze but some MONKEY generation people, DON'T.

Making everybody life difficult, and have the guts to said is not my PROBLEM, and he/she is the one who create the problem.

Why can't the generation now day make more effort, to listen, analyze and solve the problem. Is it that hard to LISTEN!!!

God, created us a pair of ears to listen and eyes to see. SO make good use of it!!

ohhh well.... anger have gone by letting this out of my mind!

part of me in malaysia

Malaysia a place I called home, I was born and raise here as a Malaysian.

I love my country, I love the people and loving the food that we Malaysian have to be proud in!

In this country, is a part of a Malaysian blood that we know where to find good food.

Knowing the secret back roots, to get amazing food.

Ambiance is not really part of the deal for good food, as far as I know....

All the delicious food is served in a back road. (IN MALAYSIA)

5star serving only happens when you are in Mandarin Oriental, Concorde , Swiss Garden, JW Marriot and many more 5star hotels.

We do have great ambiance and good food plus is reasonable price. You just need to look for it!

I have no doubt that all, every Malaysian have a favorite mamak stall.

Malay, Nasi Lemak,

Chinese, Fried rice

Indian, Banana Leaf Rice.

We asian, we like our rice. Rice is part of every meal in our diet.

I can tell you this I love my country is not because we have good government, but I love my country is because we have great food!

MALAYSIA apa-apa pun boleh!

realizing......

Love is gentle love is kind, love is a feeling that one person show how much she/he cares for other.

Love is a affection that we have since we were a child.

Out pouring love from person to another.

Many people can tell how much they love you, but you can't really feel the out pouring love the other person. Yet people around you can said I LOVE YOU as many time they like, yet is not truly from the bottom of his/her heart. Loving and liking is two different topic.

Loving is not a task nor a duties that you have to fulfill? Love is a understanding, caring, and sharing. Love for friends, family, pets, object and other living and non living things do play a big picture in our life.

Without love human nature will be dull and boring. It will be all colorless and odorless. God have given us a command to love. Love have playing a big part in our stage of life, Love has created a path of one nation towards other nation. Love have give us a tender heart to listen and to view other point of view. Try this, when your alone in the mall/park/coffee house, sit at a corner and view how people around you react and how they treat one another. Observing the big jungle in our nation.

We all have LOVE planted in us.

Once I thought love is just a game for 2, but now I realize that love is not a game for two.

Love is all around us, and realizing how we pour our love in a different manner.

the fragrance.

WOW..... Saturday Morning!

Had an amazing breakfast...."pan cakes" yummmmm.....

Going to have curry later, and the secret ingredient, of cause is LOVE!!!

BUT WOW!!!

Curry smells LIKE ahhhhh.....LOVELY!!!

Personally I can't cook curry, Miss "Deb" cook lovely curry just by smelling it.....

Sorry Katie... your curry can't beats hers' and Cox curry just can't beat THIS!!!!

SERIOUSLY .

Well if doubt my judgement YOU will be tazzer!!! (jokes)

So simple to cooked, yet I am sure I can't cook out the same flavor and the smells.....ahhhhhhh!!!!

I can tell you the truth I don't have a skill compare to this!!!

Well spending time with amazing people on a weekend is such BLESSING!

How great it is!!!

Well basically had a "FFD" Fun Fill Day!

I had a picnic lunch, just simple yet HEALTHY food, the highlight wasn't the food...

Is the people that I am with, they are just funny, loving and caring, just amazing people. Fill with action!!!

Dinner was lovely, as I said it smells good, looks good and it taste really great...LIKE REALLY great!!!

I was speechless for the first time for eating any food!!! I am NOT JOKING peeps!!!

I was so bless to meet this bunch of awesome girls.... "LORD" you have plan this way I was born to meet with all this girls....you have surprise me every time!!!

Thank you Lord for everything your my provider.......

Some How Some Where.

To whom who read this,

Every day is a special day and a special that god created, 7days in a week and there is nigh and day.

I am been living in the earth for the pass 23years now, and everyday is a journey.

A journey that I never know where I could be and I don't know who I will meet, Adventures Journey I could say.

Lord have great plans for us, and knowing him just for the short 2 and a half years is amazing.

He have show me so much in life and leading me into a journey that I never imagine myself in it.

I am walking in the path that he have plan for me is just beautiful and knowing he have all the great plans for me, he have show me awesome adventure for the pass 6month.

Some times I just think that is a shame that most of the unsaved people/friend. Thinking that will I see them in heaven? But I never give up praying for salvation.

My family is unsaved, I am sad yet I have faith in them. Is tough tho.... but Never GIVE UP!!!

He have handmade us, and he know us by our name, how amazing...

I believed one day that all my friend and family will understand me and will glorify his name and confess he is lord and our savior.

I love you Abba.... I believe you know my desire and you will fulfill it.

xoxo

Jenny Loo

Randomness

Went to the bank to do some banking. I was waiting in my Que at the cash deposit and in-front of me a late 50 uncle, taking his own sweet time to deposit his Rm 50. The Que from me and him accumulate till 11people, just waiting for him to deposit his RM 50. The funny part was the cash deposit do not accept his RM 50 and 11 of inpatient people NOT including me was cursing him. Malaysian Just Can't wait, for their turn.

Ohh well, then I went to the bank a few shop away to customer service. I was talking for 20min, then a lady just cut my conversation with the customer service, and if I tell you I wasn't pist I lied! After all the banking admin, I went lunch and I wanted to have beef noodle and the man served me wrong noodle. I didn't make big fuss, I ate my lunch.

Then I have to go to the Max generation office, to confirm reservation for Bali trip. I called them and his sense of direction to guide me to the office is so Bad, he don't even know the restaurant name down stairs at his own office - GOSH - was wondering around for the last 30min finding the office!!!! Grrrrhhhh.... By grace my temper didn't explode!!!

Then been calling the Pos Malaysia, waiting and explaining the scenario. (can't they understand English?)

Well been talking until my fully charge phone gone FLAT!!!

After long day of talking, going up and down, left and right make me so tired, so I went to salon wanted to pamper myself with a nice hair wash and blow dry. Sat down and I ask him to cut my hair short, and I sms to the last person I sms too!!! LOL!!! Tiredness make me go crazy by saying that!!! Went home everyone was so surprise about me cutting my hair. Alot of compliment tho!!!

I am not sure my feeling today!!!

if random were a feeling I think that is my feeling.

cheers.

Can't think of a better way to share by writing this down

the title said it all. ~nah just kidding~

Well I've been checking my personal thoughts on my note book/journal on special day/memories/feelings.

Looking back on all the sweet memories that I have for the pass 6 years, I am kind of amaze what I wrote and what I did for the pass 6 years.~~~~GOSH!!!

Having an amazing idea for myself, when I was 17th turning 18th. I told myself this, "Jenny your going to national service within 8month time, if anything misfortune happen to you no one will know, so you have to write and let other people know what happen". I thought I am going to die in the National Service camp for 3month. Well it turn out I am fine, but I am glad I wrote a journal while I was in camp.

Making me, to jot down important notes in my life.

Sharing my most memorable moment in my camp was, the first day you were traveling on the bus and going to the camp site. You don't know anyone and you were sad plus, everything feel dumb and thinking your going to die.

That was the most silly thing that I wrote on that book. Life in camp wasn't that bad after all, when you try to meet/talk/smile to other people that will have the same feelings as you are.

Getting to know everyone in camp and sharing life stories in our city/village/town, is FUN and worth wild sharing.

As I were saying, that was why I started to write for myself. Knowing myself is not so talented and sometime stupid, is not encouraging for me to share out my whole journal in National Service Camp. I will share 3 high-light moment for the pass 2years. There is nothing much, but I would love to share.

1.

I remember my first Christmas when I accepted Christ as my Lord and Savior. My first CHRISTMAS and it was very special to share with my church family. And this is how I wrote,

~I fall in love in Christmas!!

Is so nice when u have, good food, friends and music all around me make me feel so nice. I will katie and nicky, they will be going back soon and I will miss them seriously... ~

2.

Picking up my special friend Mary Anne Chew at the air port, been waiting for 2hours. I do not dare to go toilet, and believing she will be out anytime soon. Waiting and waiting.... I am not too sure worth waiting for so long! But for the friendship wise, "WORTH waiting"!!!

3.

Going to Indonesia, have open my heart,eyes,ears and soul. Making me a better person, and walking his plan that he planned for me. He made all things possible and is a privilege to served his kingdom.

Just 3, But there is a whole loads more. Well if you ask me personally you might get to know more!!!

Cheers!!!!

Just A Girl.

This is a story called Just A Girl.

Her name is Rina; Rina lives in a small place called "happinesses village". She stayed with her family, and both of her parents are working in a service industry. Working long hours and Rina was in a childhood. Leaving her abandon with her siblings at home without adult supervision (the oldest were turning 10th) . Well this siblings are young and naive, will do heaps of silly things and going on adventure without any fear in their hearts. Bell and her siblings will travel from east to west and north to south at the village, just for fun and creating on adventure when she was 8-12 years old.

Well Rina were at her teenage years, a year that could change her little innocent life. Rina was an amazing student when she was 13th, top in class and was in most of the school activity. Until one day, she decided not to be goody too shoes anymore. She have a bunch of friends that behave like kings and queens at school. Rina have her popularity and reputation. She could do what ever she wants just because she is "COOL".

Rina have her break down times and her happy times in her teenage school life, she did most stupid things in her life while she was in school. But Rina passed her high-school and she was very surprise, because she know she won't pass in her major exam because she didn't study nor revise at all. She have a plan for her life is to work after her major exam in high-school, and she knows she is not going to make it to college. And not wasting time she found 2part-time job just after her major exam.

Working life for Rina is just hectic, doing shitty stuff at the mall everyday since 9.30am - 9.30pm, well she knows she will regret one day, because of her silliness not to study well in her exam and go to college. Yet when the result day came, she was not too excited and she have "0" expectation in her result. While she got her result and her face changes to sadness to happiness, she had pass her test; and she could go to college to study.

Rina spend 3years in College and facing her ups and down alone is just too difficult for a young girl like her. One sabbath day, Rina decided to follow her friend to go to church service. Rina been to this church before and she dislike sittings and listening to sermons that she don't understand, yet that day she understand what the pastor trying to said,. When the last bit, the pastor ask if you haven't to get to know Jesus as your Lord and Saviour and you want to know him more and give your life to him, your welcome to come and speak to me; said the pastor.

Rina have this wired feeling from inside out and her heart beat is like 200 per second. She was feeling wired and confuse what happen to her, and she was asking to herself "go out and respond or just ignore the feeling", she been struggling for 2min and her guts telling her that she have to step out. And she did step out and respond to that, from that day onwards she walk with god and spending her time as a new born, Princess Rina.

Ohh well this is a girl who got save. By his Grace we are save and he paid for our sin. No matter your Just A Girl or a prostitute or a useless person. He loves us as what we are.

I will update more stories about Rina. So stay tune peeps.

Thank you!!!

you sexy things.

Sexy, most of you know who is sexy. And I spend loads of time with sexy for the last 2years. I love sexy so much, and it brings so much memories in my life. When I am sad, sexy is with me, when I am all alone feeling lonely you will play a song for me. Spending happy times, with you and sometime I get frustrated you will be there with me.

Sexy you give surprise to all my friend, and you make sure we get our appointment on time so your clock is faster 21min. Your such a good companion when I am alone with you. You have a new toy that said, "Catch me, If you can"... I know you will feel ego, but you know you have change now!

Sexy you are the greatest creation, and I am so proud of you. You have made my life so easy. You have give me and my friends comfort, you did a good job. It is impossible not to have you. From far I just couldn't resit calling you " SEXY".

We had shared so much memories, and all this memories brings a smile to my face again. So that I remember we did all this things and going all this places together.

You made me proud SEXY....

SIR KNIGHT CHARMING JASPER LOUIS THOMPSON

The Title is name by Jasper Louis Thompson.

His name is Jasper, age 25 and he is a Scott + Dutch + north indian + Chinese and reading make him sleepy.

Well he told me he can cook, I don't really believe him until he cook for me. (I promise if you cook I will roast chicken for you). I am not too sure how to describe him, we talked less than 100 sentences since I know him. He work as a shopkeeper and he drinks Starbucks. Well he likes to take picture but all his picture that I saw on facebook I cannot see his charming face. I think he is good in music, love K9, and don't talk much around me and my friends.

Well he ask me what about 3 June posting, and I said I have no inspiration. He suggested I write about him, so I did!

Sir Knight Charming Jasper Louis Thompson; I will be waiting for your Scottish mash potato.

This is what I know about you. Well, need to have a interview to know you better and to describe you.

If you feel sleepy can always walk around the shop or outside the shop to stretch.

Cheers!!

understanding & sharing & a part of me have gone.

I understand myself while express my feelings, I know is hard for me because I have step out and I couldn't reversed my step back. And encouragement that other people gives me, just made me stronger while walking with you in my life. The scary first step, but you know the best in me.

You have planned my journey in earth to glorify your name, and you send amazing people in my life that help me grow so much in you.

You created love.Yet I do not know what is love, but you have tough me how to love, and love towards the nation. You have unblock my gate and letting the love and comfort flow into me. Truly madness, but is so cool to see myself transform.

Sharing the amazing stories and weeping out tears of sorrows. You are amazing giving me opportunity to share and you want me free from the burden that I am facing.

You have send me angels to protract me, giving me friends to share my sorrows that I don't share with other people. Trusting people is hard and letting people into it, feeling awkward but you give me someone who wants to hear my sorrows and sharing life stories.

Giving me so much more, and gaining trust from other is a mission. Yet you set me free and you ha asked me to share my stories too, giving it love and trust is not just you, yourself is in between friendship that you created for us.

I know part of me is gone, but you left me another part that involve me and my friend, creating a new chemistry in your kingdom.

Thank you LORD! you brought me LIFE.

what I can find in you.

Someday, when your feeling sad and lonely... there is a bright smile across the road that melt your heart. Setting all your sorrows free like a gushing water.

A great treasure that will be found. I found a bright lovely smile that melts my heart, like a chocolate that melt in my hands.

Looking and admiring just a smile that made my day feel so warm. Smile that mean so much more, NOT just a smile, an extra ordinary smile.

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Keeping every memories in my mind.

Admiring those special laugh.

The special dance.

Having you is such blessing.

Random question that you ask.

You are unique person.

Not just the smartypants but a true friend.

Legend that inspire me on my cooking in the kitchen .

Everlasting smile that have on your face.

I will remember the times we spend together.

God have a destiny and bright future for you.

Happinesses, faith and love you brought to me.

Advertising Korean pop song and dance make me laugh.

Many things you have seen me change.

Making me so special in your special way.

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Well... this is some special thoughts that have in me now, and I would like to share them.

Peace out!!!!

Just for you Kathryn Amm.

My First posting, and I would love to dedicate to my dear friend.

Her name is Kathryn Amm. Plus today is 1st of June 2010 will be a great day to start a blog.

Therefore I need to make this posting worth it. Is meaningful to me and I'm not sure about anyone else. Just my small thoughts that I had in my little mind.

Is hard to say goodbye to people you cherish and having them as part of your life is been great, yet life must go on. And when the time is right we will meet again...well in...(haven or the nation). We shall wait and see how God write the history of our life journey. Yet so far he had a plan for me to meet all my special friend with special and unique talent. ( I have great don't be Jealous)

This is one of my special friends, she is have her special smile and tender loving heart that make her special. She had inspire me in many ways, she LOVE to SING and DANCE, in her special style. Have a heart for ASIA, yet did I tell you she is SMART too.... (she is blushing while reading this I HOPE)

Well I can't really describe her from top to bottom, but one think I can say...is, she have a humble and caring heart.

Talking to her in a long journey while driving make me alive....although I am not sleepy in while I'm driving but just someone that willing to talk to you while she is sleepy!! You are the first passenger that accompany/making effort to talk/not sleeping. I seriously appreciate that.

I know sometime is hard to communicate with me... but WHO AM I? Joey Parker or JENNY LOO?

It is just me....having my fun time and messing with you!!! Yet you can still stand the little princess attitude for 4 and a half month. (well done) Applause.....

Oh well... Just a little something to start on my blog!!!

BIG thank you for my special friend Kathryn Amm.

Stay tune...many posting to come!!! (i hope)